damn i was going to say something then I am supposed to be 'flat out' and i will be but right now.. my jamjar 3d thing is rendering and so i shall bash your ears for a while (btw.. i have decided unless it's starting a sentence, the word 'i' will appear in lowercase -- its not a typo). I rendered the 'm' movie yesterday and it looks coool. I have been getting some groovy emails lately. Phet's been writing and he actually writes more words per mail than me *gasps* yes.. its great. I also met this other groovy diaryland type when he wondered why a new zealander kept visiting his page (me) heh.. so he like wrote and stuff.. THEN i met a graphics guy turned law student in chatrop last night and reckons he's gonna email me so lets hope that comes off cos i lurve getting mail.. real mail, as Phet would say.. not jokes and spam n' stuff but words and interesting stories etc. These guys make up for the lack of mail from all you other jokers. *doesnt mention names* I am not complaining.. i am just enjoying the mail. My thoughts are scattered. I am procrastinating like crazy.. and I can't afford to be mishingout like this right now. It's after 3pm Saturday and I should have been at school two hours ago but someone is holding up my plans *grrr* I hope he shows up soon. I want to get (yes shop talk) my Drake CD partitioned and burned and out of my hair. So I can film my lingering long lost Premiere assignment so I can have some video content for the Portfolio CD. Arg.. its the curse of my visionary-like nature.. all these loose ends that may have been tied up weeks ago if I wasnt the person I am. But then, I am, as we have discussed.. a starter not a finisher. I was talking to Adam on the phone this morning, telling him how I plan to get 'slaughtered' on December 17th.. so be online late cos Mish'll be drunk and we alll know how funny that can be. I wonder who I might try and phone this time.. last time, even though I actually got Mike's number i was too un-co to dial. I can't remember the last time I had more than a glass of wine. God I miss Vodka. I also need help. I want to have background music on the Portfolio CD but I don't know what. Sound is a problem for me. Its Multimedia Michelle.. that includes sound as well as sight.. but what what? those little button clicks annoy me for the most part *shock horror* the Mac always sounds like its full of insects. Some Flash sites use sound quite well, but many are just grating. I can't wait til after school finishes. Not because I am gonna work (i didn't get the TVNZ job btw - didnt even get to the interview stage. Unheard of.. imagine.. me not getting a job i applied for.. i must be slipping) its because I am gonna do three websites.. sock Lingo for a six.. and try'n learn HTML properly and give XML a blast. Well.. that's the plan. Then try'n turn me down for a job.. i will become irresistable. --------

...it's just, and then you *arg* without even wondering.. sandwiches and coffee.. then the clouds whooshed and he fell but the flowers ached abit more than usual... Just a little break.. while my mind ticks over... I want this software at home.. but at eight grand a pop i doubt that will everhappen.. plus.. i would just play with 3D Studio Max never actually use it for something spectacular.. basically because I lack the drive and commitment to actually learn the flipping thing. So it's half past five in the afternoon and its too-warm here in the LAB. I know they don't have office windows openable cos of the airconditioning and the corporate types who like to jump out of high windows.. but hell.. we are on the first floor and the air conditioning is fucked. It's nice to get outside and actually breathe at the end of a day. I have been really busy lately.. no.. really. And the really awful part of that is I should actually be busier. Like.. coping on three hours sleep and no time for food kinda busy. But again, that lack of commitment thing you see. No passion. Mind you.. head colds'll do that to a person. I have coffee breath. I hate that, don't you? I mean *reaching for my tic-tacs* all it takes is a mint a couple of times a day. But some people just never seem to realise their own personal body odour issues. Not that there has been anyone *or heaven forbid _me_* that has brought this to my attention, it's just there all the same. I don't really like Peppermint and I dislike Spearmint *she rambles on* they are my least favourite flavours. Lime is nice. Especially a Lime milkshake - but not too limey .. just very pale lime. Vanilla is nice for milkshakes too. Chocolate is always nice if made correctly but it usually isn't. Everyone at school seems quite flat at the moment. All thinking a lot about what we have to do when we aren't actually doing the things we are sposed to be doing (such as morning tea time) just sitting there with stunned looks on our features sipping coffee getting quietly wired. I don't really like coffee either. Well I do. But I don't. When I am drinking my third coffee of the day I often remind myself that I am not really enjoying it at all. I don't stop of course. Yeh, that commitment thing again. Habits aren't commitment they are just habits. I would love to have a commited relationship with my body but arg.. i dont. I wanna put pictures in my diary.. but it annoys me when pics take too long to download.. and mine always take too long to load cos I never optimise them 'for the web' as they say in the trade. I mean, I know how.. and I have the book, and the notes, and the software but.. arg.. dammit. I don't. I am noticing a trend here. are you? --------

HIM: you named that cat James? ME: yes. HIM: why cant you be normal michelle, James is a fucking stupid name for a cat, Me: it's not my fault.. its the only name that suits her Him: you have one female cat called Russell and another called James, why cant you be a normal person? Me: i dont know. --------