Is this what Seasonal affective disorder feels like?
My iTunes songs starting at A and working through to Z. It’ll take me a while because about half my albums are classical music. Many years ago I bought one in a compilation of classic music and enjoyed it so much, I had to own all of them so: now I do but it does weird things to my music shuffle #sortOutYourPlaylists
Game of Thrones: kinda. I really like the series but have no sense of urgency when it comes to catching up on the latest episodes. I’m up to Episode 4 of Series 6. If I just knuckled down one Sunday - like today for instance - I could’ve caught up but no: I had to watch old, not particularly interesting episodes of The Big Fat Quiz or whatever the heck that show is called #timeWaster
Man I wish I could wrangle my concentration to stick to one book before starting another. Funnily enough the app Blinklist doesn’t really hold my attention either! I feel like I don’t have time to read but that’s not true. I have SO MUCH time, plenty of organisational skills, and a ton of books I’d like to read #ownWorstEnemy
Food! well I gave meal-prep a go last Sunday and it really helped with meals during the work week. Of course I proved it worked, I enjoyed doing it and was helpful so I didn’t do it again this week #typical
Getting back on to the public transport system. I’ve been driving my car to work ever since I got my license back earlier this year. I park in our office building’s car park and it’s by far the most expensive parking offered in the University. Plus it’s a ecologically poor choice to be a sole occupant of a car choking up the motorways just because I can’t get my butt out the door to jump on one of the many publicly available modes of transport into the city. I could save money, save milage on my car, stop contributing to Auckland’s traffic woes and air pollution if I just got my butt out the door 15 minutes earlier of a morning #firstWorldBrat
How time flies, and how much there is to do, and how much there is I’d like to do, and how if I just did what I committed to I’d have a very rich and satisfying life so why the flip do I always want to start new things? #awaysBeStarting
A sense of cynical disbelief. We’ve been under pending restructure at work. It’s been on the table since October last year. That’s a long time not knowing what’s going on. In the beginning I was hopeful - it felt like a life-line; like a rescue. But after all this time of no information the cynic in me doesn’t believe anything’s going to change and I feel worn down by the waiting. Thank goodness I have a colleague who has more resilience than I do. I cling to his optimism that something is going to change - the change has to happen and it will be the lifeline we’re hoping for. Spring is a time for new growth - it would be fantastic to start the new year with hope and direction and working with and for people who give a shit #fingersCrossed