The Jamjar

Becoming Invisible

I mean.. sure.. I lie sometimes.. like that time I told the lady at Telecom Directory I was blind just to make her feel bad but hell.. I wasn't lying THIS time when I told the Service Station Guy that his service station had refilled my gas bottle several times before today - it's the only place I go to to get my gas bottle filled and this is like the 3rd or 4th time this winter - so suddenly they're refusing to do it because the bottle has expired in January.

I am beginning to think that a) no one's listening to me and b) when they do they instantly disregard what I'm saying.

"Michelle? How do you [insert something they don't know anything about]?"
"Oh, well, you [give answer to how to do the thing they know nothing about]"
"Are you sure? that doesn't sound right."
"yes I am sure, based on my experience and the fact i did it yesterday I can tell you that's exactly how to do it."
"I'm sure that's not right. I'm going to go ask someone with a lot less experience and intellect than you possess and see what they say because, although I personnally don't have any idea of the answer I am almost postitive you are wrong."

Jåmës:   why did you tell the woman at Directory you were blind?

Michelle:   i wanted a phone number.. and she said "its in the telephone book!!" and so i said "I'M BLIND I CANT READ THE TELEPHONE BOOK" - she felt bad and gave me the number which, incidently WASN'T in the phone book

Jåmës:   you'll burn in hell for that one

Michelle:  in for a penny, in for a pound

Jåmës:   yeah, all the cool people are donw there anyway

Michelle:   at least you'll be there

Jåmës:    well I'd look bloody stupid wandering around in heaven, really sheepish cos I've spent my life saying 'doesn't exist'.

Michelle: you can just carry on saying it doesn't exist even when you're there cos if you're like ME no ones listening to you ANYWAY

The Morning After

I feel so much better this morning than I have in a while and it's all down to having finally purchased a set of in-trays. I'm not entirely sure which tray is in, which is out and which is pending, but at least they're here and have the potential to be used properly to keep myself in order.

Their purchase sparked a desk-and-immediate-area sort-out. I can't say the kitchen/lounge area was straightened up after I finally purchased a decent frying-pan* because I don't think my life is quite that simple. At least I cooked and ate a hot meal last night.

My personal feng-shui is such a delicate thing.

*my frying pan's a film star.